Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Truths About Life
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Death and Dreams
It's been a while since I last posted an entry here. It's not that I am busy.. just that I feel I've got nothing nice to write. But I miss blogging. So here I am. This one's not gonna be nice but go and read anyway.
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I have read about death and that people came to think of it once they are aged already. Nah! I have thought about it. You think I am of age already? I don't wanna think so. But yes, I have thought about it. Last Monday dawn, I was thinking of the possibility that I leave this world. I never recalled if I was saddened but I realized I should be doing things like it's my last- laugh, talk, eat, share... just enjoy moments and be good while enjoying. I wonder how people would recall the way I am- plus? or minus? I wannna be remembered nicely. I think all of us want it that way. The plain question is "HOW?". Well, I really don't know. We need to please people to be remembered nicely. I believe I just have to please my parents and all those around me. I could not please everyone though. But, at least, I tried to please them while pleasing myself too, that is, while doing what I want.
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Then came to me... This world would be a better place if we strive hard not to be the cause of someone else's headache especially those who love us. This world is a mess because, first and foremost, kids become their parent's problem and husbands or wives become their partner's problem. If we strive not to be the cause of someone else's misery, then there would be a better family atmosphere... better environment... and then, a better world. But first, let us not be the cause of our very own problem. The things we do or do not do contribute so much to the things that messed up our lives. How we live our lives should be patterned to the way we wanted life to be. No one's gonna have a good life if he doesn't live a good one himself. No one's gonna be successful, if he doesn't strive to be one himself. What became of us is the result of what we do especially those we keep doing. Yes, success is a lot easier for a few, and a lot harder for some, yet, however hard or easy it is, if we don't paddle our way towards being successful, success won't be at hand. And life might remain a mess. Then we realize that it isn't the kind of life we wanted. But that is the kind of life we've been living.
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Go towards north, if you wanna reach north. Go the other way, and you'll never reach north but south. That is, the same with dreams, you have to walk each day towards your planned destination and never make a step back. If you will, you are getting even farther. But first, ask yourself, which direction you really wanna go. If you still don't know, pause and reflect. Don't go where everyone else is going. Because, by the time you realize you are on the wrong road, it will be too late for you to go back. You will be too old then and destination will become even farther... perhaps, out of reach.
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So, before you go on a journey, create a business plan. Should unexpected bills come up, countercheck your business plan, surely, there is a strategy for you to follow written in there to reach you business objective.
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Life is like that. A good life is something that must be planned, designed and must be implemented.
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If you're not ready to make your dreams a reality, go on sleeping.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
It Is Madness

It is madness...
To hate all roses
because you got scratched with one thorn...
To give up on your dreams
because one didn't come true...
To lose faith in prayers
Because one was not answered...
To give up on your efforts
Because one of them failed...
To condemn all your friends
Because one betrayed you...
Not to believe in love
Because someone was unfaithful or didn'ft love you back...
To throw away all your chances to be happy
Because you did not succeed on the first attempt....
I hope that as you go on your way
You don't give in to madness
Remembering always ...
Another chance may come up
Another friend
A new love
A renewed strength
Be persistent
Look for happiness in every day.
The sure path to failure is to give up! It is often through failure that future success comes. Keep trying!
Monday, August 15, 2005
Same Ground
Same Ground
Kitchie Nadal
My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to
Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go
'cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground
My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to
Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And never ever have to fade
Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground
If all else fail
Would you be there to love me?
When all else fails
Would you be brave to see right through me?
Grabe! This is one of the songs I love deeply. Super cool is the voice of Kitchie. I wish I could sing the song well enough.... a bit closer to how she does.
Goodbye
Goodbye
For every hello, there lurks goodbye. For everything in this world passes by.
Life is goes on and on no matter what. Everyday that comes, passes. It's true to every situation, things and places. Some seem to last for a lifetime. But not really. They do have to go sooner or later. That is the nature of life. Nothing remains. Nothing stays the same. For if nothing changes, life is boring. Change makes life more interesting. Without it, life is monotonous and everything is familiar. Everything is seen the way they always are. Indeed, it's gonna be boring. Imagine that.
But there are some things in life, we wish would stay that way forever. There are some things we never want to see changing. But they do. And we don't always know how soon or later they change. Just that they do change, some, slowly, some, quickly...before we even realize that they were once there.
Life is full of wonders and surprises. Goodbyes. Hellos. These are a few of them. Some things come. Some things go. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it makes living easier. Sometimes, we never really know if it hurts or not, till things or people go and bade ur goodbye.
A goodbye often hurts and often relieves. It hurts maybe because there may be still some words left unsaid. How painful a goodbye is determines how many words are there left unspoken or deeds left undone.
But a goodbye is necessary before we get the chance of meeting again. So, don't be dismayed with goodbyes.
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Goodbye Shiera. I'm hoping for a positive outcome of your newly-chosen adventure. When you have the chance to climb higher, go! Life is more beautiful when you're at it's peak. Because it is only there, where you can have a sight of the whole view. Ganbatte kudasai. Mata aimashou.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Top 15 Modern Sayings
3. The wise never marry.. and when they marry they become otherwise.
5. A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where train stops. On my desk, I have a work station.... what more can I say?
9. Love thy neighbor. But don't get caught.
15. God made relatives; Thank God we can choose our friends.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
For A Special Friend
Cute note with a cute pic.
I just thought of showing this one for I think this is nice. The message, if not readable says: "I never knew what wonders a friend can do... Yes, surely they can change things around you into smiles, Sunshines and happiness. Just the way you keep on doing, always."
Dear Betsy
Dear Betsy,
I would like to tell you how much I need you. I have purposely held off writing to you and in doing so, I had turned over and over in my mind, all these past few days, why I am here and you are there- so far and so beyond my reach.
I do not want to say good-bye again, or to repeat what I have said, that in these two years, you have become a part of my life, and I feel for you what I feel for myself, these tissues, this skin. I have grown so familiar with you, the contour of your body, the smell of your breath, the soft warm crevices of your mouth, and the whole wonder of you. I know now how difficult it is to be alone, to be here in this senseless confine not only of my own being but of this wretched city, and to know that you are not here where I can glory not just in your nearness but in the thought that you did love me.
And at night, I lie awake, and I speak your name as if it were some incantation that would dispel this loneliness for now, I am really alone. I whisper to these cold, rusting walls, to the damp cement floor, to the emptiness around me, Betsy, Betsy�c but I can only hear the echo within me and so I wonder how you are, if you are happy as I hope you will be, and I pray that you be not tormented as I am, that your nights are slept and your days are bright, and if you remember, may they be those times that we shared, the coffee shop, the tawdry rooms and the sheet that was stained with red, the books that had to be read, and Tondo where I had tasted your sweat; yes, so many of these now crowd my mind, and they are all crystal clear, pictures, events, places- all of them important only because we knew them, lived them, and they have become us.
I did not want to write this letter, but it is one way by which I can escape this bleakness which now encompasses me. Now, too, I know how it is to be what I am and to remember what you are, life giver, my joy and my sorrow.
You will forget, not because you are young, but because you are far away, and having forgotten, it will all be over and you may, on some occasion, remember, perhaps, because this is the way things are and we can not change them. I don�ft know if I will forget; one can never be sure, but I know that you are now my wife, not because God or a priest has sanctified our union but because this is how I regard you. Though I may sleep with other women, I know there will always be you- separate from the rest, not just because I feel that you have given me yourself, or your faith and trust, all of which I do not deserve, but because I have given myself to you as I will never give myself to anyone.
I will be leaving Tondo now and I wish I knew my final destination- but I do not; the compulsions that we have talked about will take me to regions I will not recognize, but wherever they may be, there will be a light to guide me, a talisman which will make me endure and you are all of these.
But above all, you are the proof I will always hold precious and true. Thank you, dear Betsy, for being with us in thought and deed. There are a few like you, comfortable and secure, who have chosen to be with us; I will doubt them in a way I once doubted you and they must bear the burden of proving themselves as you have done. Only time will tell and time, alas, is fickle in a way I will never be, now that I know who I am, now that I know what to do.
So let me go away loving you, and losing you, for, in the end, we will lose all those we love.
Signed: JS
Taken from "Mass" by F. Sionil Jose, pp251-252. It hurts me reading this letter. Jose had always insisted that oil and water could never be one. You also think so?
Injustice
"How do I get out of here?" I asked.
"If you are poor- you cannot get out. There are no rich people in jail. They can afford bail, the best lawyers. They can even buy judges."
"I am poor." I said. "A self-supporting student. But I am innocent. I have not committed any crime. I swear to you... "
"Who is innocent and who is guilty?" He shook his head. "The poor are always guilty and the rich are always innocent."
. Taken from "Mass" by F. Sionil Jose. Really is a striking novel. You had better read it too. (Yonda hou ga ii desu.)
Friday, August 05, 2005
Wants and Needs
Today, I would like to announce that I grab myself a want-an iPod. Yep, an iPod. It's quiet a thing to discuss here for it is a want and not a need. It's quiet hard releasing the cash. "Oh! Am I sure?" This was what came to my mind when I finally paid for this. It's not really a big deal for some, but it is, for me. I have never really tried pampering myself with wants. Needs must come first. This is how I was brought up. You see, I have never bought myself expensive stuffs for no big reasons at all. But this time, I give in. Because I love this stuff and I can't live without it! Darn... me kidding again. Of course, I could go on breathing without this one. Of course, life is life without this one. But I still got myself this techy thing coz I love music. And I want to have this as my companion on mornings, on my way to the office while walking and on evenings, while walking too. Of course, I can walk and reach or walk and leave the office without this! Why not? But... yes! but... it's a nice thing to listen to music while walking. I seem not alone anymore when I am. And it feels good not being alone, right? It feels good.
This is a gift I gave to myself. This is the most expensive techy thing I got myself so far. Surprising, maybe to others who find this one cheap.
The next thing to do now is to download my fave music.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Best Medicine
"What if it doesn't work? I asked. "Double the dose" he replied.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Ang Sampung Prutas
May 3 hunters na nahuli ng mga cannibals sa gubat. dinala sila sa harap ng tribal chief para siya ang pupugot ng ulo. nagmakaawa yung mga hunters. naawa naman yung chief.
Chief: ngayon, ipasok mo ang lahat ng mga prutas na iyan sa iyong puwet. kailangan ay hindi magbabago ang mukha mo. konting ngiwi o ngiti lang ay pupugutan ka agad namin ng ulo.
Juan: sus! sisiw lang pala. kayang-kaya! buti na lang maliit na prutas ang kino-lekta ko. Naipasok ni Juan ang mga lansones sa kanyang puwit ng walang problema. ngunit nung nasa pang-10 prutas na siya, bigla siyang napatawa. pugot-ulo agad sabi Chief.
pagkamatay ay napunta agad si Juan sa langit kung saan nakita niya si Pedro. nagkausap ang dalawa.
Pedro: sayang Juan! pinapanood kita dito sa langit habang ginagawa mo yung utos. isang lansones na lang hindi mo pa tiniis! buhay ka pa
ano bang nangyari sayo?
matatapos na ako bigla kong nakita si pareng Jose -- may dala-dalang 10
pakwan!
Saturday, July 30, 2005
The Day You Said Goodnight
_hale_
Take me as you are
Push me off the road
the sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun
I'm burning in the rain
The silence
I'm screaming,
Calling out your name
Bridge:
And i do reside in your light
that puts up the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye
Chorus:
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
The calmness in your face
That i see through the night
The warmthess your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known
oblivion is falling down
Bridge:
And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye
Chorus:
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be alright.
Chorus:
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me
She's already taken,
She's already taken me
The day you said goodnight
A Mexican Love Story
MEXICAN LOVE STORY
Maria had no choice but to go to her mama. Mama already knew and said "Mi hija, do what makes you happy. Marry Ricardo or marry Jose, because you are not related to Papa."
Nice, isn't it?
Friday, July 29, 2005
Climbing Osmena Peak

We cooked our meals, made tents, chatted and climbed a lot. We slept over a little below the peak. Twas so cold there that my double long pants and my triple upper garment didn't work as I expected. My back was aching with a little stones on my back. Made me realize I am so blessed to have a bed at home unlike those unfortunate ones.
Really, when you experienced having less or not having at all after really having it, you realize how blessed you are for having things you have never really appreciated. Now, it came to me that I must appreciate my bed and the roof and walls in my room for providing me enough warmth and comfort especially at night. The same is true for every thing or person you might have taken for granted because they've always been there. You realize their importance when you lose sight of them. No kidding here. Good enough that I still have my bed to sleep when I came back, unlike those who realize a thing's or person's importance just when they lose them. Too late baby. It's too late.
Let's get back to my climbing experience. The walk was really long, maybe about 3 hours. We were following trails of the previous climbers and sometimes, we created our own trails when we want to walk a different path. Sometimes, we succeed, sometimes, we got back to the original trails.
There were 13 of us climbing the mountain. I only know two of them before the event. But they all became my friends as we go along the way.
The toughest job, I've done so far now, is trekking to Kawasan Falls for 6.5 long hours. Yes, 6.5 hours. That's really tough. Consider the wet trails and so steep ones and the distance too. Oh! It really pains my feet, legs and back. Imagine that. Only walking along trails along steep mountains. That's the most amazing thing I have ever done.
But upon hearing the falling of waters, I suddenly forgot about all the pains in my body. We rested awhile then dip ourselves to the cool waters of Kawasan Falls. Explore the water source. Dive. Sail. Picture-take. Walk. Eat. Chat. Laugh. These are the essential part of it all.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Loving Someone
Short and Simple! :) It stands without having the need to explain it. And it's true. Amen?
Friday, July 08, 2005
Cousin Mae
This is my very cute cousin Francis Mae. We fondly call her em-em. She's so cute, funny, witty and talented. She was eating stik-O when I thought of letting her pose for this wonderful pic. She did it well as you may have seen. Oh! I love looking at her whatever she does. She is very talkative and warm. She loves hugging and being hugged, kissing and being kissed. She is an angel who makes us forget all our worries and problems. She can sing, act and dance. At the age of 1, she opens a book and pretends to be reading it. She also tried playing my PC then- typing on the keyboard and watching the monitor's display. She loves watching a video of herself and pictures too. After taking her pic, she asks you to show it to her before you could take another.
I remember watching "Winnie The Pooh" with her, when she's 1 year old. She cried when Pooh fell from the tree. Her favorite movie is Garfield. Well, I say so, because, she watches the movie immediately every after she wakes up in the morning. My dad has become tired watching the movie with her.
Her favorite hip-hop music is "Don't You Just Know". She loves singing "HAHAHA... HEYEYO! COOBAH COOBAH COOBAH... HAHAHA". And she refuses to dance if she doesn't like the music being played.
Her greatest fear? The sound of a running motorcycle or a hand drill in motion.
Her favorite food? stik-o? not really. She just loves eating spaghetti and french fries. Well, actually, she loves eating whatever we give her that's why she looks obviously healthy.
My dad, mom and sisters... we all just love her. And it's a sigh when the day turns to night, because we had to say good night and let her go to the place where she belongs- her own "home sweet home".
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Wall Climbing
Before starting to climb, we were provided with a 10-minute orientation of the basics of wall climbing- do's and don't's, safety precautions, and the like. We had a warm-up exercise and then testing of how to tie ourselves safely and also we were taught what to say to signal the belayer that we're climbing or to signal the climber that you're belaying. You got to say "CLIMBING..." when you wish to start climbing, "CLIMB ON!" is the reply of the belayer. This must be done to ensure that the belayer is ready and is looking up at you while you climb. When you reach the top and you want to go down, you say "BELAY" and the belayer will say "BELAYING" and he releases the rope to slowly release you. When the belayer says "BELAYING" you have to sit on your harness so that it would be easier for you to go down. Remember to protect yourself while being belayed by pushing your legs against the wall but not tightly, just a push and bounce so that you won't get injured or anything to that effect.
For those who want to lose weight, Wall Climbing is surely an effective exercise. Climbing did make me sweat a lot immediately right after I start moving my legs. You should try it too.
The climb gets tougher when the peak gets nearer. Conquer your fear! Reach the top!
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Night With Friends
Introducing, my bestfriend yokie and my new friend mic2x. We had dinner at Yellow Cab last night and had fun chatting and eating pizza. Mic2x is Dennis' (a very close friend) wifey. I believe they are perfect partners because they believe so. :) I hope to have another eating and chatting with them. It's really nice to meet classmates and get to know how things are doing with them since we parted ways. I guess, we all had fun. I was a surprisingly bubbly last night. I believe. Well, I guess I just felt so at home with my friends and I'm just so glad to see that we're all fine and doing, hmnnn.... i guess, well.